Proud but Also Scared of Me

Lyrics

The best feeling ever is driving very very very very fast Down deserted roads at one in the morning With my windows rolled down and its 32 degrees out I could almost swear that I'm flying And the best feeling ever is just buying you food Watching that happy look spread across your face Best $13.98 that I think I'd ever spend on two bowls of mac and cheese And the best feeling ever is when you pick up the phone When I call you after just one ring And I know you were probably just on Facebook or something But you talk to me without hesitating The best feeling ever is just driving home from work When it's cold out and we have nothing left to do We'll watch some TV we'll make a pizza Maybe finish a wine bottle or two But you know me I'm a sucker for being sad when I should be happy 'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain The best ever nomad at staying in place If you could find your way up here I'd find mine out just as quickly By the time you made it up to Trinidad I'd be hiding out in salt lake city In the heart of the fire In the belly of the beast The city I was born in never looked that good to me 'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain The best ever nomad at staying in place If you could find your way up here I'd find mine out just as quickly By the time you made it up to Trinidad I'd be hiding out in Salt Lake City In the heart of the fire In the belly of the beast The city I was born in never looked that good to me No amount of Xanax or Lexapro or Celexa will ever fix this Serotonin machine's broke Could I get you something different It's been this way since I was 12 Nothing really changes Except the fact my medicines are now slightly less than prescription And I keep having this dream That they find you under a bridge Body all torn and mangled And eyeballs missing from their sockets After months of investigation they will find them You''re proud but also scared of me And I think that that makes sense 'Cause out of everyone you know well I'm not one of them You''re proud but also scared of me And I think that that makes sense 'Cause out of everyone you know well I'm not one of them That punk kid who did well in school I graduated summa cum laude Immediately got a job out of college and moved up to Rapid City In the heart of the fire in the belly of the beast The city I was born in never looked that good to me 'Cause I'm the ultimate killjoy, the ultimate pain The best ever nomad at staying in place If you could find your way up here I'd find mine out just as quickly By the time you made it up to Trinidad I'd be hiding out in Salt Lake City In the heart of the fire In the belly of the beast The city I was born in never looked that good to me