No Pain

Lyrics

[Chorus] Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain [Interlude] You're safer here than any place else now just lock yourself in and keep quiet [Verse 1] Keep quiet That's what they tell me I don't listen not compliant I'm just grinding got desire No choir I'm alone That's how it goes (That's how it goes) That's what I chose When I open up no one seems to notice I feel broken all the time gotta focus Spending all my time searching for a motive Keep it going keep it going real shit Using shit like this as a fucking outlet Got me taking one step forward but three steps back (Woah) Run it back Don't know how to handle this amount of love man it's hard to react Yeah it's hard to relax I mean I love it but it's heavy Deadly feelings make me wanna be petty I'm constantly suffocated with jealousy I don't think I've gotten over what's been bothering me mentally I'm laying in my bed at night wandering so restlessly I mean I want it to end I don't want this as my legacy I'm trynna find a way to balance but I just can't find a recipe I cover all my feelings up by masking it with empathy I'm trynna find a remedy that resets my brain chemically I wanna live in ecstasy right now I'm treated specially Cause I know I'm made for better things I'm just searching for my destiny (Searching for My destiny) Yeah (Yeah) [Chorus] Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain [Interlude] You'd do it again if you thought you could get away with it, wouldn't you [Verse 2] Yeah I'd do it again Cause it made me who I am Yeah I gotta lotta issues but it's part of who I am yeah I know I said I gave a damn but it just ain't true Back when I wrote trust I was a different dude Cause that was back when you scr- (Ooh) I shouldn't say that but it's true Cause I'm way the fuck over you But the day still stews in my mind I know I always say I'm fine but I'm not yeah And I'll be honest I've been getting better Cause I barely remember what's it's like to live a life with some pressure And my new girl she's so refreshing And I can't help but think that this all happened for a lesson And now it's been a year but the damage remains I gotta lotta trust issues and it's causing me pain It's put a damper on my current relationships and it's causing em to strain She ain't going anywhere but it's messing with my brain yeah Cause if she talk about another man it's like adding gas to the flame I don't like the way I act when this shit happens I'm ashamed I know I do the things I do cause I'm afraid But that don't make it right And if I bring it up I know we're gonna fight I mean I know she understands but what she's saying is black or white (yeah yeah) These are just some the thoughts that keep me up at night yeah [Chorus] Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain Waiting for another day that I might change Yeah I'm young right now but I don't wanna wait another day I just wanna feel alive yeah it's hard to explain I just wanna live without pain [Verse 3] It ain't fair that my problems are haunting me It's costing me the person that I wanna be I know I use comedy as a coping mechanism Always there for you cause all I do is listen But I gotta a problem with perfectionism it's a prison And that's facts I like to act like I got it all together but I'm still picking up the scraps That's a fucking fact I just wanna fill in the gaps And the pain make me wanna collapse And the issues wanna crawl to the back Everything so stacked on my shoulders But I'm just looking for closure Yeah