Hold Me Down

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Rustage] It'll only take a second but Seconds turn into minutes and minutes turn into sessions I'm losing myself to time in a myriad of obsessions Know the pen can be my solace but fear makes it a weapon Cus I feel I'm losing presence, I can't focus on the now I can't act like all my brethren, I'm not known to buckle down Search for answers for my questions and I'm hoping that its found I had people getting mad at me for floating in the clouds I've been thinking way too loud But then I never think it through Only started on this song cause I got other work to do Every other task is capturing my attention like it's breaking news I be acting panicked but still chilling in the waiting room I'm sick and tired, always living in this way I've been trying to be gentle but I'm filling it with hate I don't feel like I'm a person, just a image of my brain All my traits I thought were special are just symptoms on display [Pre-Chorus/Bridge: McGwire] My mind is racing I can't stop to slow it down My fate impatience I've been racked with sober doubt, hold me down [Chorus: McGwire] Same shock, could never get rid of it Thank god, you're holding me steady I thought I'm out of my mind To gather my time and stopping my headache Yeah, I'm frozen in space All over the place I need someone to just Hold me down [Verse 2: Rustage] Cutting off distractions like a hydra they keep coming back Unhealthy forms of coping, treat my brain like it's a punching bag Mind is a controller that came equipped with a rumble pack I'm surprised that all my patrons don't want their money back I've always thought that I was lazy I been handling a rusty car like driving a Mercedes Cus I'm driven but I'm always backed up, caught up in a daydream I've been pedalling so hard but I forgotten where the chain be I be loving running D&D, but hate it when I'm playing Sick of all the waiting Want them to listen to what I'm saying I be so self centred I'm sick of the celebrating I ain't sitting still, I'm moving up and down the station pacing Or I'm paralyzed My brain is yelling, body won't cooperate Embarrassed by my symptoms And this shit I'm leaving on display Every thought gon' block the way I'm useless in the modern day Feel guilty for my friends and all the shit they gotta tolerate [Chorus: McGwire] Same shock, could never get rid of it Thank god, you're holding me steady I thought I'm out of my mind To gather my time and stopping my headache Yeah, I'm frozen in space All over the place I need someone to just Hold me down [Bridge: Rustage] My parents told me it's a blessing It's part of the reason I'm good at this But there's a big list I'm forgetting And they're wanting something I couldn't give I know there are ways to address it I'm scared it'll change who I am I'm scared it'll change who I am I know I want to be happy But I'm still a coward So I will just do what I can [Pre-Chorus: McGwire] My mind is racing I can't stop to slow it down My fate impatience I've been rocked with sober doubt, hold me down [Chorus: McGwire & Rustage] Same shock, could never get rid of it Thank god, you're holding me steady I thought I'm out of my mind To gather my time and stopping my headache Yeah, I'm frozen in space (I can not slow it down, I can not move) All over the place (I can not hold it down, I can not choose) I need someone to just (I can not slow it down, I can not move) Hold me down (I can not win, but I will not lose)