​i am not brave

Lyrics

[Verse 1: doin' fine] Since SOPHIE died, it's hard to find hope Like will we ever see a trans girl grow old? Will I see a mirror at seventy, and if so Will it feel a little less cold? Shit, lot of people want me dead, come and have a try It won't be that hard, pull the trigger, panic out my life Death ain't shit to me kid, I already did it twice All my siblings wanna swim but it's infested with great whites Tell me if shit changed since Leelah and Blake died Tell me if my best friend's about to be next in line Tеll me that I'm brave motherfuckеr, do you want to die? I just wanna be safe, god, fuck a battlecry I am not brave, I'm tryna escape Love hurts, hate kills, put it on my name No one who loves you should make you feel so unsafe I love you so much and that'll never change, TMPF [Verse 2: zombAe] It's brave to use your voice They say it's bravery is a point But honestly I think that bravery just needs a choice, and I'm just tired of this motherfuckin' poison If I'm being real I don't even enjoy it Bravery is when Superman fuckin' saves the day But Superman's a super man so why the fuck does he need graves Bravery should be more like when Lois Lane chooses to go out there and try to save the day But that's not the exemplary story chosen, I mean I know that they understand that it's potent, but see They don't understand all of my emotions, and this Feels so uncertain, feels so upsetting like- But to not want to show your face in a generation when discrimination is still just Caucasian faces That body up the ideal, the right and skinny real deal The thigh gaps and fine asses [?] gone four years What happens when your lips are thin? Or your eyes are squinty? Teeth are yellow? Acne skin? Girl you're Whitney That's something that you're accustomed to if you've never seen the world outside this bulletproof chamber [?] the fucking new necessity Bruises the product instead of lyrics and the melodies Sorry my thoughts cancerous, you can't create a dance to this My fragile colored body bitch, I'm not a fucking mannequin Mask off to the viewers through computer screens we standing in I see how DOOM deceased and everybody weep but no one ever really took his message to heart through the screen Because the Instagram and TikTok still way to post the art And I don't understand why I don't declare war like Bonaparte, fuck I'm fat, I'm not empathetic, I'm a just piece of shit My teeth are crooked, tell 'em to see by how many times it bit My eyes are squinty, my lips are big, I always play pretend That one day I'll be ready for the screen but this not it Contradictions, contradictions, want the best art But you wanted real fast and Instagram the whole process You pretend you wanna know the thoughts in my head But I know if I ever told you then you'll leave me for dead [Verse 3: Charlotte Crosby] I guess I have to thank my family But to that I'm sorry that I'm scared Because it's the beginning of the end But if you're here I feel prepared And I guess I can shout myself out too For never jumping off that roof Because if I did that shit for real then I could have never done this too But in a- Moment, I should take away your life I may be broken, but I want to be an ender of this strife And I don't wanna kill you I don't wanna kill myself I just wanna save all my friends But it's hard to save myself I'm still fighting for my life They keep taking away our rights And I'm sorry I'm still running But I gotta fucking hide And if I still hung around those people Or would have overdosed on drugs I would've choked myself to death Would've never found real love