Enjoy Your Stay

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Welcome to my mind hotel, I'll show you the way So make yourself at home and I hope that you enjoy your stay Any stranger that approaches brings a joyous day Please forgive the neglect that's left it in a disordered state I'm always eyeing for friends or lovers to tell About this private confinement that isn't just a hotel (It's never just a hotel) hell with rap it's a given That I have your permission just to be self indulgent as hell Step up, into the lobby, first thing that you see Is quite a modernized arrangement that is hip and unique With accommodations for many, feels inviting and friendly Designed for social settings, but it's nicer when empty My thoughts echo off the walls Volume up, and Ballroom 1 becomes a concert hall When darkness falls, I try to draw a hard line Between my dreams and planning events that aren't mine To the left is the fitness center It's a lot less used than the business center It's a bit disheveled Not the best compared to other hotels But I'm pressured to frequent it for my health and to be thin as well If you forget an essential or get hungry Don't forget to come by the neglected section of sundries Where they'll remind you that your memory is worsening Losing shit you really need, holding on to worthless things The swimming pool's perfect for a family This is likely where I'd bring my kids, if I had any Thought of it before, largely an act to please them Water over my head, I'd drown in a lack of freedom [Verse 2] That's the gist of what comprises our facilities for public use If you liked it, I'll reveal to you some ugly truths There's parts that few will ever see, dusty from disuse I trust you, let's go up to the rooms At times you'll spot a zombie walking down the hallway, that's some scary shit Arms and legs for my therapist but I don't tell him this I act like I changed, lie, and backslide Bask in the shame embattling my life at bath time I'm embarrassed by my taste for bad music and men In the eyes of blackpillers a max six out of ten Embarrassed by oversharing and landing in hot water Embarrassed I suck at music, but more that I'm not a doctor Hoarder by birth, keeper of archives Locked in this coded safe, several folders deep in a hard drive Are Terabytes of data that stay there accumulating dust I can't delete, even the really humiliating stuff Maybe surprisingly there's quite a bit of closet space Despite my dispassion for fashion I need all this space This room is heaven on earth for intrusive elephants I got a living tombstone's worth of spooky skeletons You want an artist with a perfect past? Well that's too bad. I punch up, but didn't always do that At any moment someone's gonna nose into my private affairs Start reporting what they find over there Got a full length mirror just see my defects up close All the pores, all the scars, yeah I got truckloads Fuck clothes, I see more clearly when I'm naked That who I am inside's what other people make it There's a nice king bed, it's a shame I always sleep alone I wouldn't know love if it came to meet me on its own Convinced there's no one else on planet earth that matches all parameters I travel through paramours like a passenger [Verse 3] Below the balcony's where the fears in my heart reside I'm scared of losing the ones I love to the march of time I'm scared of losing the one, I'm scared of being no one I'm scared I peaked way too early and it's keeping me frozen I'm scared I'll never bridge that gap between my skills and my goals I'm scared my online addiction will leave my brain full of holes Scared I'm starting to be fixed in my beliefs Scrolling echo chambers on Reddit, digging my heels deep Scared I'm getting out of touch and too old for the game Scared I'm missing out on TikTok fame Scared I'll be a disappointment to the family, or worse, myself Scared you'll leave cause I'm beyond any help, well suit yourself Wait, you wanna stay? Okay That's fine Don't say I didn't warn you if you change your mind