I’M NOT DOING FINE

Lyrics

(INTRO) I'm not doing fine People think I'm lying Which is pretty true That's something I wish I didn't do (REPEAT X2) (VERSE 1) People ask me all the time How are you and I say I'm doing fine But really I just lie Because it's easier to hide My emotions from people Which is really feeble I wish I could put down my barriers And let people in which is scarier Than just telling them everything is good But the truth is I feel like I'm in the hood And I don't know my way around this place These emotions are something I can't escape Without me showing my true colors I look fake It's obvious that if I told people the truth I would feel toxic I just keep trying to keep all my feelings in boxes I'm feeling like I could break out my emo side and be gothic I'm not feeling like my self I'm feeling demonic Like I've been possessed and I'm chaotic Ive been locked in a trance and I feel hypnotic If I don't get in touch with my emotions I will be psychotic If I take too many drugs I will be narcotic (BRIDGE) I'm not doing fine People think I'm lying Which is pretty true That's something I wish I didn't do (REPEAT X2) I'm not doing fine I need to take some time and rewind Think about what I need to improve Why am I always in a mood And tell people I'm not which is crude I'm not alright I'm not okay I need to pull these thoughts out of my cranium Sometimes I wonder should I grab a gun But if I died that wouldn't be fun My family would be devastated My memory would be faded And I would live on hated For something selfish I had done And I can't shoot myself with this gun What if I hung myself or cut my vains Those ideas also crossed my brain But it would be the same outcome And I can't do something that cruel and dumb (VERSE 2) I'm not doing fine People think I'm lying Which is pretty true That's something I wish I didn't do The truth hurts so much But I don't want to be out of touch Should I tell people what I'm feeling When it comes to emotions I keep dodging and weaving When I try to have a deep conversation I'm like I'm leaving I need to stop keeping my feelings concealed They need to be revealed In front of an audience People will think it's Crypt I'm copying But its more of me following In his footsteps I don't want to be just like everyone else I'm just trying to express the pain that has been dealt