Ideaspace (TWENTY-FIRST CENTURY MANIC SCHIZOID DREAM GIRL!)

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I've spent so long being fractured I don't even know how to explain where I've been and what I've done My life is always out of order, I can only remember hair colors and the weather And the music I was listening to back then My brain's a mess, yeah, there was so much stress that I broke and split and became nonhuman There's a weird place inside of my head that only I know about and it's filled with dead things And old characters I made when I was just a teenagеr and didn't know better bout dissociation And all of the sеizures and all of the meds that I took that did nothing cuz I was too fat [Chorus] I've been feeling metastable I feel like I need a break [Verse 2] And it's not like we've figured everything out about this! The doctors don't even know what the cause is or where it comes from or why it exists in the first place But we do know we feel way better like this And we run out of fingers trying to count the times clinical psychiatry has failed us Cuz it breaks you and takes from you, hyperbolizing everything minor thing while ignoring the bigger scene Post-trauma and every ounce of abuse I experienced broke me and split me down Into the fragments that you see before you and we don't know if you're afraid of us now Despite the fact that we've been like this the whole time or at least as far as memory serves Please don't run away from me now [Chorus] We've been feeling metastable We feel like we're gonna break We've been feeling so unstable Can't think about anything Anything at all [Bridge] We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space We're all just ideas in space, space, space, space, space, space 1, 2, 3, 4 1, 2, 3, go! [Chorus] We've been going metastable Rampancy's our daily life My head's swimming through ideaspace I'd like a break