I’m Sorry, I Got No Words

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To those who I left back in Spain I'm sorry Every friend I've ever left in pain I'm sorry To my mother when disappointment reigns I'm sorry To those I've hurt and made tears rain I'm sorry To my siblings who hate me more than love me I'm sorry To the people that I've stabbed when they tried to hug me I'm sorry To the people with whom I didn't put in the effort to restore things I'm sorry I'm sorry... Yeah I take it back Take it all back Hate I don't need that Got me blinded gotta open my eyes up and see that See what? Hard to see when you blindfold your own mind Own heart No heart Broke heart Done I try so hard Blowhard Go hard Hopes are None What you gonna do When your life is built on lies And never mind your plans there's no space for the truth But forget your ideas and plans the truth'll make room for itself As a rapper wanna sell my thoughts but it's hard when there aren't any more words in stock Got an empty shelf I'm nothing but an empty shell Full of corruption and anger Not gonna lie I'm scared of hell Scared of myself Scared there's nobody else Willing to love me and lay it all on the line and sacrifice themselves I'm sorry I tried To not try I lied To all of y'all and I cry Because look how broken I am Look how broken we are! Look how broken I am Look how broken But how to ask someone to sacrifice their own wish Got me trippin' wondering how I came to be so selfish Shellfish Got a better grip on life than me I scream I don't even know what I'm working towards I got no words No words I got no words All I got is hurt All I am is cursed All I touch gets worse All I wanna do is blurt Out that I'm done and don't know what to say Hope that my Lord and Savior got me get me to a better place Better wait Before you trust in me I don't deserve any of your faith I deserve every little bit of your hate Other day I dreamt I slit my wrist let the blood just bleed away God covered up my cuts and healed my pain I screamed because healing was against my wish I took a moment stepped back and all my claims Vanish at the sight of His greatness on high the great I'm a witness He wiped away all of my hurts I looked up at him and said " Lord I got no words" I got no words I got no hurt I am not cursed Better no longer all worse The glory I felt washed over me I woke up in bed feeling cursed again it was all a dream So I promise you I won't stop searching A way to end my anger To end my pride To no longer endanger The love I have for others' lives I'll keep searching for a path For a way For a road Because y'all know It hurts I'm out of words