Lyrics

still not seeing someone else still think about you, oh well god i hope you're doing well i'm sure as hell, not lying still in bed for hours my mood has become so sour cynical but to a fault and it's all my fault so much i can't undo i was so bad to you i made mistakes i hope your heart can heal moving on is so rough how long will be enough time flies by but i'm still right here with my thoughts i forgot how not to rely on someone else if i ev really knew how to just be happy by myself pondering the time we spent wondering just where you went back into your different world or somewhere else? didn't think it'd end so strange our friendship won't be the same will you ever look at me or just leave me be? i don't know what i need but it's not your empathy still feels like a dream what will ease my mind? i'm unhappy all the time i can't let my heart unwind with my thoughts i forgot how not to rely on someone else if i ev really knew how to just be happy by myself after all this time of running away from whats inside oh i am afraid that deep down there's nothing there it's all a guise, it's only lies i'm hollowed out, from all that ain't fair made of trauma and plastic smiles with my thoughts i forgot how not to rely on someone else if i ev really knew how to just be happy by myself