​​every ounce of energy.

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I haven't slept for twenty-four hours And I won't sleep for twenty-four more I can't eat, I can't even shower I can't seem to get up from the floor [Verse 2] Just how long do you think I can stay here? Just how long do you think I can lie? I'll smile and wave, and say that I'm safe here But sooner or later I know that here is where I'll die Stuck inside my own mind [Verse 3] I haven't wept since I don't even know when I haven't smiled sincere in a while I haven't meant a word that I've spoken I'm not heaven-sent I'm evil and vile [Chorus] I haven't cried, and I don't know why There's plenty to cry about I'm stuck at a roundabout [Verse 4] Give me a reason to even keep up my breathing I'm feeling hopeless and worthless Becoming numb so it hurts less Oh please just give me a reason to make it to the next season I feel compressed, undynamic Just verging on manic [Bridge] It's taking every ounce of energy to not panic [Chorus] I haven't cried, and I don't know why There's plenty to cry about I'm stuck at a roundabout I've bargained and lied and forsaken my pride And now the noose is tied I'm losing my will to fight [Verse 5] But perhaps these winds could wash out my sins And give me something to smile about Like a child on a merry-go-round Substituting a smile for a frown [Outro] And maybe, in time I'll consolidate my mind And see there's plenty of joy to find The truth that's beneath the lie That one day, I truly will be fine