Lyrics

I'm sitting on my bathroom floor Dry heaving and texting you and spitting up bile Your presence in the universe makes me uncomfortable with living But your presence in the universe makes me smile You make me feel like middle school Like nothing makes sense, like I've never done this before You make me feel like middle school Like nothing makes sense, like I've never done this before I don't see this working out But I'll waste my time here, 'cause I don't see anyone else You're the closest I've come to finding someone I can see with myself We're not that close And this distance is hell Lying on my basement floor, being in denial Live inside the phone calls we had And I think about your voice and I'll try to be less sad For just long enough to start thinking clearly About how to put into words that I'm not all that bad And if you can look past all the fears, and all the flaws And how, more recently we hardly even talk I'm just hoping for an ending that makes this destination worth the walk But you left me here And you left me scared You left while I was picking up my things from the side of the highway In the wake of a car crash I couldn't have been less prepared I just needed to know that you cared I needed something to be glad that I lived for And I came back to nothing there I'm sorry, I'm a disgusting representation of a romantic Oh, I make myself so sick with the way I refuse to get over this You say that I make you uncomfortable You make me comfortable, so I should probably leave At what point did I get so nervous? At what point did I scare you away from me? I swear to fucking something, in the next year, I'm gonna fall in love You couldn't face, you're the face set out in front of me You weren't enough So tell me that I'm barking up the wrong tree Tell me that there's nothing between you and me Tell me that I don't know you well enough to think these things Tell me this is crazy You think I'm being crazy I wanna see the bad in you I wanna see the blight in you I wanna see something I don't like in you Something to combat me idealizing you And if I still think that I could fall in love with you And I'll know that there's nothing that I can do And I'll know that there's nothing that I can do I'll let go just as soon as you tell me to I'll let go just as soon as you tell me to I guess I'll stay here on the floor for a while