Lyrics

[Verse 1] At what point did I fuck this up I lost myself but I gained a crutch It's so much harder than I thought it was Been spending my nights getting too fucked up I think I'm a mess I think too much More dependent than I ever was [Pre-Chorus] There's a train track nestled between my house and work And I don't stop at the stop sign I put my life in the hands of the universe If there's a train let it take me If there's a train then I guess that it's my time And I gasp and I cringe and I hope and I dread And then it's over, I'm on the other side [Chorus] Life's a short trip You're the pilot I'm not sure that I'm ready to land this thing yet I've always wanted to drown My odds are better in the water So if we go down I'm aiming for the ground [Verse 2] I wanna set myself on fire Could you please watch? See me burn as bright as I have always seen myself So you'll know I'm not a liar So I can feel all the pain I've always thought I felt I keep ending up here on the floor At least in different rooms So at least I don't get bored Oh, existing's such a chore It's so strange how some days I end up stuck in bed And other days I don't get stuck until I reach the door [Chorus] Life's a short trip You're the pilot I'm not sure that I'm ready to land this thing yet I've always wanted to drown My odds are better in the water So if we go down I'm aiming for the ground Life's a short trip You're the pilot There's an answer and I'm sure we'll find it Life's a short trip You're the pilot There's an answer and I'm sure we'll find it [Bridge] Try to be enough for myself You're so strong you don't need help It's so hard to rely on anyone else You're so strong you don't need help I tried to leave the house I stopped at four different gas stations Went back to the first and found the nerve to get out But when I finally made it in, couldn't decide what to get I went and hid in the bathroom It's my favorite anxious habit Then I went back home I gave up and got stoned I can hardly face the world I sure as hell can't face it alone I'm holding out for something more Let's see what life has in store for me I'll try to keep breathing, but existing's such a chore So I am holding out for more Let's see what life has in store for me I'll try to keep breathing, but existing's such a chore