i swear to god

Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a picture of intense internal struggle, starting with a feeling of being overwhelmed and disconnected. The narrator is "on cloud ninety-nine," a place of supposed euphoria, but the "air is very thin," suggesting a fragile, unsustainable state. This leads to a loss of mental control and a desperate desire "to get out of my skin," a common idiom for feeling uncomfortable or alienated from oneself. The most jarring image is the claim of "killing all our friends," which, given the context of mental distress, likely refers to self-sabotage or the destructive impact of the narrator's internal state on their relationships, a pattern that "happens every time."