Lyrics

Watch my plants die from the comfort of my bedsheets I feel so glass half empty So stupid So hard for me to explain Paint you a Picture of June where I′m stealing Hearts Backstep gloom as I go away I've got this feeling That all my friends will leave me one day One day you′ll drown in your body And you'll realize your friends weren't the enemies So then you′ll lie in this heartache And the fact that you know that it′s always your fault When you drown in your body And you'll realize your friends weren′t the enemies So then you'll die in this heartache And you′ll realize that maybe it's always your fault I only call when it′s 4 in the morning I'm sorry to be typical But I need someone here right now I only call when it's 4 in the morning I′m sorry to be cyclical but I need someone by my side And I can′t beat the boss if I don't have A healer to mend when I fall back I can′t beat a boss if I don't have friends I need some friends I′m caving in I might start feeling better if I cut off some old tethers But it's never worth it to sever Trading pleasure for some pressure Cause I′m always mean, Joke machine Begging for some dopamine Trying to do well while I'm holding me hostage It's hard to accept that The person I wanna be does not exist. As I look back And I lived in the shadow of a person that wasn′t there I′m breaking (No!) And I'm losing (No!) I think I′ve got something left to prove I'm breaking I′m making Myself in the image of someone I'm not A hopeless romantic for escaping thoughts A vessel for demons who want more than they can take So then you′ll drown in your body And you'll realize your friends weren't the enemies So then you′ll lie in this heartache And the fact that you know that it′s always your fault So you'll die in this body The same one you entered the world with, will beckon you out And you′ll realize your friends aren't the enemies They are the reason you′re here And your body Will slowly decay just as it has done since the first day You arrived here Your friends aren't your enemies they are the things that you lack