The Bed

Lyrics

Heaven is the bed I make and Hell is where I've slept And I know there are parts of me who not know where I've been Can somebody please tell me why I worry like I do? This pain I feel don't feel like mine I don't know what to do with it Here, I'll play dead, in the pool I float like I won't sink Instead of trying to swim to shore, I call for help again And glory to the clarity that comes in subtle waves With my back against the wall, and nothing to believe in And I'm now not afraid to work Sometimes I don't know what to do So many options, hard to taste, but I'm so hungry I can't move And when I finally gained, that confidence to lift that spoon Up to my face I know I'll keep eating even though I'm full Now, drill holes in my feet Pull me out and watch me drown Set me on top of this water, let me stand on solid ground I'll play dead in a pool I float like I won't sink Instead of taking your advice, I'll float on top the waves Now, you tell me I'm crooked You tell me I'll adapt You give me an answer to a question never asked I need you to listen But you needed to talk And now we walk together We got nothing done Now, look at me all civilized Like I need this to live Addicted to the routine life that I've had since a kid City lights, conservatives, and television sets And frequencies that I can't see but keep me in their grip In between the mountains, something calls for me It tells me that it's time for change It tells me I should leave And I know that I should, but I have nothing to pack And I'm scared that once I turn my back that I'd never come back I'm tired of the same old same, no pain, no gain, someway, somehow I lied when I claimed that I'd know how to make it settle down I'm blind like you are me And we are naked, not alone We're born to raise awareness, just to train in how to smile For every little speck of paint Thats ever been painted on this wall I'd sacrifice my ego just so we could watch it fall Cause Heaven is inside of us, and there is no where else Together we can finally feel as empty as a home And in that home there lives a voice that I call the unknown It pulls me and it pushes you to where we need to go Sometimes I do not listen, only when I doubt myself And when I'm sensitive to my intuition I sense that everything has evolved So what is it that governs these decisions we must make Between the right and wrong, and how we label some mistakes Cause lately I've been thinking about how it comes in waves And how every single choice I make will impact everything So how much do I make and how much is outside of me? And what can I do to prevent myself from feeling future pain? Cause even when the sun fills up the sky inside of me A part of me becomes preoccupied about when it will rain Now, Heaven is the bed I make and Hell is where I've slept And I know there are parts of me who no not where I've been Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do And remind me to enjoy the moment while it lasts with you Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do Could somebody please tell me why I worry like I do This pain I feel don't feel like mine I don't know what to do without it