Autumn

Lyrics

[Verse] You always acted like you cared You always acted like you were actually there You never thought of me once I tried to run, it's hard when I'm getting grappled by love And I know that you would try your best But I'm guessing you had enough of it Wasting your time with me as I'm here And I'm really loving it It sucks and this is new When all I think about's you You're hiding behind your makeup And terrified of the truth It started back when we were only little kids Grade 5 and I acted like everybody else did I thought I wouldn't amount to shit But I saw you and still beautiful Here we're going again, a love song, yeah as usual Typical Zach, always staring at you in class I finally got a phone just to text you and just to laugh Remembering back, and I'm wondering if you miss me I never believed in dreams until the day You finally kissed me, I'm just... I'm just nothing but a wreck We reunited in grade 8 and that's when we'd always text I'm always trying my best and I'd always just get rejected Then I ask you again and question us where we're headed You'd always make me your second, never first When you finally found a dude my emotions fell for the worse They fell much lower than dirt and you treated me like the best You were taken and you ripped the heart right out of my chest, I... I just hate seeing you talking and dating these other dudes I'm watching your every move, I never thought that I'd lose A girl as perfect as you, and I understand your feelings I'm just not the one you choose, yeah I get it Girl I really do I'm surprised we made it this far, I'm always wondering who Would steal your heart next, who you'd always manage to text Who'd be sleeping there in your arms and who you'd always call the best I'm not asking to take me back You treat me like I'm the bad guy Really? That makes me laugh Cause really you have a sad life Or maybe that could be me Cause you screwed me over And you damaged me permanently I'm certainly nobody perfect, you're hurting me worse than ever You're knowing my story and all you'll have is this letter It's better than locking me down in your friendzone forever Than to break myself out and just never, ever Have to face you again Cause honestly it's hard enough to just be friends Can you look me in the eyes and say that you loved me? Probably not, cause it's a lie, I would honestly die for you That's more than true And you would honestly die than be the one to tell me the truth You were ruthless and you knew it, I'm honestly gonna lose it Yet you're calling me useless and nothing more than a nuisance, AGH I'm just your back up, I packed up, I'm fluctuating Stuck inside your mind, losing time and I'm suffocating I never said I was the best, those words came out of your mouth And I'm putting those words to rest I was blessed with every curse, that's honestly how I feel I'm waking up in these dreams and I never know what is real We used to have the world in common, I guessing that's not enough I'm honestly losing patience, I'm trying to give you up I'm like nascarring our past, because you left, you're never right And honestly I thought that you would be the one girl of my life The one that could show me the light and now I'm slowly going crazy Everybody is fake, you've been changing a lot lately, maybe... Maybe you and I, I'll get it together I'm just so fractured from every lie You honestly left me severed, I'm never knowing the placement Trying to give my heart to you, but it's been taken Lately I've been feeling sick I'm just so tired of taking everyone's shit You say you'll be right back, but when's that? Fuck, I don't even know where we're at I'm just... I'm just needing the light I'm need the right path leading me to meaningful life And you were right, showing me that we would never work And now we're nothing and I always feel like fucking dirt It hurts knowing that we'll never be the same Trapped in your friendzone is always bringing me pain You tell em I'm one to blame, and never game em the truth And now I'm hated by her, her, her and even you What's more to lose? I have a feeling of emptiness in my chest I'm barely having a meaning My conscious always depleating I'm tempted inside your mind I know you're wanting to text me But where's the time right? Our love is finite What's wrong with my life? Sitting on the cornerstone of everything It's not right And when I'm losing my sanity You're losing every memory That you had of me Honestly you search for happiness, I dearly hope you find it Declining that one request, I treated you like a diamond You're lying inside your mind, regretting you ever left me Keeping it all together, but feeling empty Damn