Bottom Talk

Lyrics

Ash to ashes, dust to dust All I knew begun to rust What is wicked, what is just Always fucking something up The harvest moon is overcast Autumn falls, I joke and laugh I live the present and choke the past It's crystal clear in photographs Everyday, I've been distraught It seems like weakness when it's not It's simply not what men should want That's what I've heard said a lot They're job's to top, to be the ones Who make pursuit and get it done I want to have control of life But that's not what a bottom does I feel like I'm not entirely in control, but I feel like that's the way that I was supposed to bе, you know, I- That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk I've tried to be morе assertive and try to take more control but, I don't know, it's not something that I've found- That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk ...that everything that, that all the emotions that I wasn't feeling for all that time are now coming all at me all at once. And now I'm trying to figure that out, cycle through that. And now...now I'm struggling with my identity. I'm trying to balance all this out. I'm trying to make sense of all this. I'm doing the best that I can Suave from the neck up Getting physical. Running my check up Just know I will never slow down or give up even when I'm headlining Coachella You do your shit while I do it better When I make these bills, I can pay these bills I can pay big pharma to shape these thrills Fuck that. I would never want to waste these pills trying to make me killed I'm a big red flower The blue jay's cadaver ain't close to me I don't even need to cry power Not drowning. I can still breathe The beast that I cower from Has not shown it's teeth for a few hours now I feel safe enough to bring the tower down Now I hope I haven't been counted out Let me give a shout out to the people in the crowd feeling down now Just know I understand how you feel When you beg and you borrow and you steal For everything that you know is real And those who say that it isn't What are you, truscum? What are you, batshit? Understand now, or put yourself in a trash bin I just hit a hat trick. First three tracks hit Money in the mattress Stash for the addicts I want to take the bad shit Leave it on Atlas If only it were easy, make it vanish like magic No need to ever stop until we're all living lavish No need for introduction. I've already been established I'd never be pretending but I could be an actress Take a look outside to the vastness Of every single fucking identity being valid I've always had this thing about...I always try to text first, you know. It would be, I, I would love if someone were to text me first, I would- That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk I've trained myself to think so rationally for so long, I feel like I'm supposed to be guiding myself by at least some emotion, but- That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk That's bottom talk Maybe I'm a woman Maybe I'm confused Maybe I'm an NB Yeah that's probably true Still I can't confirm it Still I can't deny it Maybe none of it matters I'm still this body's pilot