Seeking (ft. Anna Kalatcheva)

Lyrics

Crusts of backwards time Crusts of backwards time seek to hold me back Imperfection bleeds within our lives Forgotten in sin Blown away from me and you Away from me Forgivene- Forgiveness doesn't exist Sad to watch my friends go Imperfect Imperfect eyes as my hate bleeds out Fear of others' imperfect ways Fear of everyone Fear of evil Sin to hate no matter cause [The Most Saddened Shard] Sadly life doesn't have eyes- maybe sad in my heart Well I- I- I am seeking Yes I love you Sad to watch you go away Never saw I never met Fear you'd hate me Erase such fears My own hate Hate in hateful images I've built It's sad to see Well, sad to say there is no other (Sigh) [The Most Confused Shard] Yes I know, it's sad to say there is no other. It's hard to put all like love inside. Um, you know, 'cause like all the [ ] I feel from others and uh& I hate my fear? So I think I should just... Go away I'll go away Oh it's hard to watch you go away Fear of others Fear of evil Hate is sin no matter cause or justification [The Most Confused Shard] Uh maybe? I don't actually know the answer to that. Maybe& you know, maybe I love everyone? Or, there's like a& maybe there's some way of like ranking people in a way that& that doesn't& I dunno. Ah& Go a- go away Go away I'll go- go away I'll go away Leave me be I'll go away It's hard to watch you go Forgiveness doesn't exist Sad to watch friends go You never saw you Never met anyone ever before This is the reason why I am so sad right now [The Most Saddened Shard] And um& I think I have- you know it just seems like sometimes when you're alone for long periods of time you- you forget everyone you've ever met, you know? [The Most Confused Shard] And I'm thinking about all the people that I remember from times when I was a better person. Or maybe I was worse? I- I wasn't alone enough or I was nave or something? Maybe my own kindness is my own naivete. I mean, maybe I'm my own person? Or my own mistakes? Maybe I'm holding myself accountable at every single instance of time? And that's a good thing isn't it? It's a good thing to learn from yourself? Good thing to learn from your mistakes, isn't it? [The Most Hated Shard] I think that it is and I think that I am becoming a great person! A strong person! A mega-person! Permanently strong, yeah Permanently better than everyone else Permanently stronger than your friends and everyone you've ever met Permanently better that all your friends You're a stronger man than you've ever been and you're going places Going place- right to the top of this American dream Baby Oh baby don't you love me