Before I Blow

Lyrics

[Intro] (Slam D) All these things that I'm feeling It's not easy for me to forget I feel so alone... come back! I'm always thinking about u, all of the time... [Hook] Lord Jesus, my King (my King) Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside) When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow [Verse 1] Shit is crazy since October I been so fucking lost Nothing could ever prepare me take my mother's loss I been cursing, been searching because I been hurting To buy you that brand new Mercedes mom I been certain All before you got to see me on TV, at the time I'm still performing in venues with empty seats Rocking my Jordan Vs, maybe my skinny jeans When I really started to flex on Phangkela's beats How these youngins want a co-sign from me Got me feeling The Pinnvcle they always tryina reach But this a small town of course of who I am to speak Where the freedom of association leads to your defeat, so I... Decide I to cut ties with these bitch boys These snitch boys, all of you who ain't fucking with my clique boys All I want is everyone to make a big noise Whether it's the sound or the decor spill out your voice [Hook] Lord Jesus, my King (my King) Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside) When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow [Verse 2] Older youngin with some big dreams, always plotting new schemes Love to see my generation interested in new things See me navigate the labyrinth without a blueprint I know u did 1st, I did right, so fuck what you think If I give in to this depression I know I will sink Gotta keep moving, stop spinning like a whirlwind When I found you in your bed I swear that was my world end Made me even question if I really love my girlfriend I been different, I can really tell something missing I don't really feel like writing bout some big pimping I paint a bigger picture step back to see my vision Boy you too close, you'll overdose if you get the image But if this shit was all written let it be I dunno maybe God got a bigger plan than me I question everything even like why I have to sleep I'm getting to a point where they cut me I don't bleed I got... ghetto dreams like this rhythm city Plenty things you would think are silly, probably make more than a milli A couple months could see us own a landmark building I don't really care who dropping what I'm minding my business I don't really listen to niggas that's why I sound different Been around the block and I cannot define women Swear this one shawty till today is mind gripping Rest in peace my lovely mother your spirit forever shines, Pinkie [Bridge] Always shinning in my heart (always shinning in me) I forever feel your presence though your not with me Where are u?! (Ay) I need u! (I wanna give u everything) Rest in Peace to mama I swear I will not forget you You forever in heart and there's no one above you [Hook] Lord Jesus, my King (my King) Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside) When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow [Outro] Oh mama... I'll forever-ever honor n respect u U forever gone be my Angel I will always love u mama, oh mama...