Lyrics

(verse 1) Happy life when i was young Not fitting in with anyone Having talent but i let it slide Mommy told me Baby don't cry Father told me Mommy wants to die I wanna hide I faded away Mommy tried to lie Now i feel the same (verse 2) Got my first friend When i moved I moved because mommy left I guess this is something new She did not want me She was not happy Now i feel this pain Tears are rushing outta me (verse 3) But the people i thought That were my friends Ended up leaving and lying And i restarted again Do they not understand I can't handle this Got a best friend But we fight all the time She knows my story She knows i'm not fine (verse 4) Waking up Wishing the same That i have been for 6 years But this life never change She left one scar Made me wanna leave Got in my sister head Now hse says My daughter is me And i wish i could go away (verse 5) Getting more friends Hiding in a corner Shoving them away I don't know what to do now I'm not my former self When i was little I did not care About what they thought About my medusa hair I never had a mom that would take care That would help me Even when i'm scared (verse 6) Cry all the time I smile to hide I say i'm alright When my step mom asks me Why i wanna die Cover my face Don't let them in I know i'm a disgrace Now i am this thin I have been starving myself For three days now (verse 7) No one notices I'm just a shadow Trust me i know this I know i'm worthless My mother proved it She shows it real well Wish i could die I attempted to die I wish i could die I attempted and tried But i can't say it went too well (verse 8) Friend stopping me Saying i want attention Break all the mirrors So no one will be missing I promise i don't want attention I rather hide away And see how they are not noticing That i'm gone No one sings along Or tells me i'm wrong (verse 9) Tell me it's just a phase Tell me i'm just a face Standing in the crown Is is over now Looking at the sky Seeing pain in my eyes Seeing no lies Seeing my soul die And you wonder why And i say cry And she says for me to hold on But i can't when i remember these things About my horrible mom (verse 10) So i die Away form this life I will make it end Tell my friends I can't handle this Call me an attention whore now I don't care go fuck yourselves You got nothing better to do Then showing me how to tie a noose I can see how you want me dead I can see how i got this far Father wants me to be like how i was When i was younger And smarter And happier than i am now This is my life song And everybody feels my pain now