Lyrics

[Verse 1] I fashioned myself a hatred for beauty Envy steeped in alcohol for eight months I found myself spitting on murals of possibilities And waking up with bloody fists [Verse 2] I sewed into my arm a reminder of the dread of waking Not that it was necessary, but like a flare shot into the sea It signaled to the emptiness that I was ready [Verse 3] I woke up vomiting, disgorged a collection of corroded copper coins Arranging their paltry worth, upon my sunburned chest And begging anyone to rake them off [Verse 4] I dug into the dew-laden soil, a hole of perfect depth This accumulated language, bankrupt and tawdry Throw it in and grasp my throat with fury [Outro] Every thought absurd Every word empty Every error exposed Every moment wasted