The Aftertaste

Lyrics

[Chorus] So what does death taste like? I know the aftertaste, it's hard to shake I nearly passed away on father's day Reminiscing on my past mistakes Yeah I know the casket's waiting it ain't far away And people laughing at my pain it's getting hard today They don't even know I'm suicidal in the dark and I can't spark a flame I'm just another blip of an artist up in the market of the database So who gives a fuck what my bars would say [Verse 1] Yeah, if these were my last words I hope they never remember mе like forgetting the password Lеt the past burn, fill the flask, triple dropping pingers til' my heart hurts I've been living silly since I can't learn I've been feeling different since my nana and my pop passed Wish I could just pop past, visit them but nah word Yeah, I'm feeling distant from my father, feeling distant from my brother, feeling distant from my ma Feeling shit, cos' I haven't had a mix Feeling scattered mixing valium and bricks It's a habit that I haven't yet to kick I used to mix my xannies with my pingers and then have a little fit What an actual little bitch Just an addict but as tragic as it is, I ain't trafficking or trapping, I ain't clapping with a ting I ain't stabbing with a shiv I ain't rapping bout' that crap cos' I been rapping what I live What the fuck am I doing with my life? Yeah, they say my music helps em' all cope with the woes and the stress But I still feel like a joke and this bloke is close to the edge If you haven't noticed yet Broken, emotional wreck Overdosed on my death bed, I'm supposed to be dead Thank the lord I'm still here every moment I'm blessed I'm so over the top it's going over your head But they still think I'm in over my head I just smoke up a sesh [Chorus] What does death taste like? I know the aftertaste, it's hard to shake I nearly passed away on father's day Reminiscing on my past mistakes Yeah I know the casket's waiting it ain't far away And people laughing at my pain it's getting hard today They don't even know I'm suicidal in the dark and I can't spark a flame I'm just another blip of an artist up in the market of the database So who gives a fuck what my bars would say [Verse 2] Yeah, lazy prick Looking for a way to quit People think I made it, go fuck your face in, don't take the piss Starting gaining weight but now I'm losing it and gaining shit I haven't eaten for a couple days it fucken makes me sick Shake a fix Scribble on the page I think I made a hit I'll maybe make it big, nah this shit is whack, I'm erasing it Yeah, I can't catch a break, what a way to live Lemme paint a picture, I'll try explain and portray this shit Fans that say I [?] I missed a chance and that my fame is slipping away and my new songs don't hit the same and they hate this shit My friends are saying I changed, I lost my ways and just say I'm tripping but really I'm just afraid to admit that I'm caving in Blake just messaged me saying that I should take a risk and give it my all because I could become the greatest Australian rapper that may exist I just gotta be patient and stay persistent but Maybe I wasn't made for this Maybe this is on my [?] or maybe it is But I can't make a decision Been stuck in the same position for ages And I been awake for days and tripping as if it's a matrix I think it's a simulation, I'm wigging seeing their faces split Maybe I just imagined it, maybe I did I'm fucken going crazy Doesn't matter cos either way I'm still getting faded using it as a way to escape from it Cos if I don't then Imma go insane and blow my brains out all over Taylor No one can save me now and I'm breaking down I think it's too late, I can't take it Don't think I'll make it out I don't think I can stay around Yeah, at least when I'm medicated I'm safe and sound Even though Satan's watching me and he's been waiting for the day that I- FUCK! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD! [Satan] No!