I’m Always in Love (Demo)

Song Meaning

This demo paints a picture of a love that's less about gentle affection and more about a visceral, almost violent, entanglement. The opening lines, with their imagery of releasing a "throat sweet throttle" and cleaning off a "black belt model," suggest a relationship that's been intense, perhaps even destructive. Yet, immediately following this, the narrator claims, "I'm always in love," creating a jarring contrast between the described actions and the stated emotional state. It's as if the very act of surviving such intensity is proof of the love itself. The lyrics then shift to a more surreal and disorienting landscape. Holding "cold in my jet-lagged palm" and yoking oneself to something so intensely that one "forget[s] my mother" points to a profound loss of self and a deep exhaustion. The moon being "load[ed] right on my back" feels like an immense, almost cosmic burden, a weight that causes a "drag" and a "snag." Despite these overwhelming feelings of being weighed down and disconnected, the refrain "I'm always in love" persists, suggesting a compulsive, almost involuntary state of devotion that overrides personal well-being. The most striking aspect of the writing is how it uses mundane or even grotesque imagery to articulate a state of being in love. The heart being "full of holes" and hair that "just, just grows and grows" are peculiar, almost unsettling details that don't align with typical romantic notions. The lingering presence of "your whiskey is on my breath" grounds the abstract feeling in a tangible, perhaps unpleasant, reality. The narrator's admission, "I don't get the connection," is the crucial pivot; it implies that the state of being in love is not understood or rationalized but simply *is*, a condition that persists regardless of logic or personal cost.