So Old N’ Told

Lyrics

[Verse 1] When I was a boy there was some terrible shit that went down But still I hung around, to see if it would get better And when I was a lad, well I was lonely and I was sad But still I hung around, to see if it would get better And when I was the boss, well there was so many things that I lost But still I hung around, to see if I could win But I'm getting so tired of this contest, who comes out on top man I couldn't care less This smile you see I can do coz I practiced and I ain't ever gonna check this sadness You trust truth bare witness [Chorus] This shit is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here [Verse 2] So I built a wall, I built it sturdy and I built it tall. You cannot get around It's covered all in big graffiti That nothing can erase. Coz it's a permanent mark of disgrace that I will always feel whenever I look in a mirror You know I tried to hide, I tried to cover it all up inside But it still it comes around. Still it comes around I can never be normal unless I fake it, you say that you can but I know you can't take it This song might be long but on truth it's a statement that I ain't gonna ever shake the memory of that basement. Trust [Chorus] This shit is old, my angers been in control since like forever, on my eleventh year And what they stole, man I can never be whole not I ever, not even when I am no longer here [Verse 3] And in the night-time, imaginations breed deadly violence, inflicted my friends Carry my brother, I think I'd rather, you had it better, write my own letter, found by my mother read it to no one in the end But when I dream I dream of paradise, one where I live somebody else's life Why can't I live somebody else's life? Before this fear was here I was alright Before this fear was here I was alright Before they led me down the stairs