First Apartment

Lyrics

I want to go To where you grew up Spend a summer Staring at your open hand Then gaunt and old And scared to screw up I might understand I slept alone For once since autumn Found I started dreaming That we shared a room And all your jokes I always got 'em Or I would assume Even if I don't No, you wouldn't judge Well enough alone No, you wouldn't budge Even when I'm terrified It isn't enough In his first apartment And he's saying that I'm good And it's stupid but he loves me In a way I wish I could, oh At night I try To match your breathing I roll around in linen Until you're holding me By dawn I'm on I'm scared you'rе leaving You're consoling me Crying on thе couch Laying on the floor Could you spell it out? Waiting by the door Even if you say it every morning Say it more, ah Jesus, I need something I need something all the time But I can't feel it, I can only sit you down And fucking whine, ah I think about the bullshit that I put you through I think about my future, baby It's always shaped like you You I want to go To where you grew up Spend a summer Staring at your open hand Then gaunt and old And scared to screw up I might understand