Shit I Used to Do

Lyrics

[Verse 1] Forty-somethin' years old, can't believe I got here So many reasons why I should be fuckin' not here So many memories, most of them not clear So many nights, drunk drivin', went and got beer At one fifty five, tryna race against the clock Runnin' stop signs, doin' eighty down the block I probably should be paralyzed, dead, or in jail The fact I'm free and walkin' is a head-versus-tail I should have seized opportunities that I squandered Should have been focused, instead, my mind wandered Depressed and aloof is what thе booze made me Suicidal thoughts in my mind, thеy would plague me I'm glad I lasted long enough to change my ways A lot of people I knew, they can't say that phrase I walked on a tightrope as best as I could Now I'm good; Fuck, I jinxed it, knock on wood, uh [Chorus] All the shit I used to do Can't believe I made it through All the things I used to say I'd never say that shit today [Verse 2] I'm glad I'm a musician, I'm not a politician So I can say, "I'm sorry," without everybody bitchin' Some of my old lyrics, I be cringin' while I'm listenin' Wonderin' why this shit is so damn misogynistic Calling women bitches like a million times a minute Makes me not wanna hear the rest and just skip it Maybe it'd be different if I was actually pimpin' But I wasn't, I was sittin' at my house, alone, drinkin' Words that would slander other people's way of livin' An old, idiotic, homophobic way of thinkin' A weak fella tryna portray a strong image A mask of masculinity to hide who the true bitch is When people seek forgiveness, it don't make me upset I said some shit this morning I already regret There's nothing set in stone but a stone I don't say, "I've stuck to my guns," I say, "I've learned, and I've grown" [Chorus] All the shit I used to do Can't believe I made it through All the things I used to say I'd never say that shit today (Play some funky shit, I gotta urinate) [Trumpet Solo] [Verse 3] Yo My life will be ending soon They say your body is a temple, mine's the temple of impending doom My back, my knees, but mostly my shoulder They all fall apart and go to shit as I get older I used to skateboard, and my mind plays tricks on me I skateboard now and think I still got the tricks in me Muscle memory, I see it so vividly I can do it mentally, but can't do it physically I used to be agile, now I'm fragile Went from athletic to decrepit and pathetic I used to be free and wild; soon, I'll be senile At the senior citizen center, tryin' to freestyle Spittin' on the nurse while I'm sittin' on a bedpan Tellin' her, "you know, lady, I was once signed to Def Jam" Tumors abound when I get my head scanned Then, I'm a dead man. Damn [Chorus] All the shit I used to do Can't believe I made it through All the things I used to say I'd never say that shit today [Outro] Aw, shit!