Doin Damage

Lyrics

[Verse 1] It's hard to be sober but it's easy to be bent When you got some extra money and don't need it for the rent Got a girlfriend now that I secretly resent 'Cause she takes up all the time that I previously spent on myself And girls just wanna have fun And she be all fun when her job is done But my job is another thing, 24/7 hustling She wanting to do a couple things, cuddling I like to watch movies, I really fucking do But I can't stop moving just 'cause I fell in love with you And now I'm just an irritable bastard Like my homie E said a man can't serve two masters And I've got a third one chillin' in my stomach A little leprechaun screaming "Alcohol, I want it" And he never ever shut up, he says, "Come on, keep it coming" And the alcohol goes along with the music and the women So I black out on the regular And it's rare I'm a end of the night rememberer Goddamn, I'm a drunken mess Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed [Chorus] I'm doing damage Yeah, I'm doing damage To my body and mind, I'm doing damage Call the doctor, he'll probably find I'm doing damage [Verse 2] My health just ain't what it used to be 'Cause I done smoked a packed of cigarettes a day since I hit puberty And stupidly, I keep on going and buying 'em And my lungs probably got some cancer growing inside of 'em And it be affecting how I breathe at times I hit playback, hear myself wheeze between the lines I could probably quit if I was thinking clear But my willpower goes out the window soon as I start drinking beer And every freakin' year I got the same resolutions January second I be making excuses The leprechaun is a dangerous nuisance Who sips champagne while he angrily two steps I got a deal now, which should be essential To straighten up my act and live up to my potential But I just can't taste that success Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed [Chorus] I'm doing damage Yeah, man, I'm doing damage It's probably gonna catch up soon, I'm doing damage Call the doctor, I need a checkup soon, I'm doing damage Bridge [Bridge] I didn't wanna be this way Didn't wanna get like this every day But my formula's something that I can't touch 'Cause regardless I come through in the clutch I come through in the clutch, I come through in the clutch [Verse 3] I am too much for you ducks to touch, I am illustrious I am a bad motherfucker and I truly believe that But I gave some shit up to achieve that Like my family and my friends, they don't call me anymore 'Cause when they would call I would always hit ignore I was always self-absorbed with absorbing myself I drink it up, drink it up, drink it up 'til there's no more of myself And I don't value my father and my mother enough I don't value the company of others enough And human interaction is an essential part of happiness I believe And that's what I've been rapping to achieve And I did it in a way 'cause I'm in love with this shit But alcoholism and music something that comes with this shit When you're living for yourself, it's a lonely existence And if you talk to yourself, you gon' be the only one listening And that about sums it up I'm out of gin and I really want another cup So I'm out, to the store I guess 'Cause that's where I go when I'm fucking depressed I'm doing damage