The Storm

Lyrics

[Verse] Why must I fight the pain Taking over my brain When i can pretend to be sane With a blank face Got nowhere to go I think I've lost control Pouring out my soul Onto a blank page And I've fought the good fight for too long Looking up to heaven when my faith is gone Screaming out at god inside every song Can Somebody tell me what i fucking did wrong But then the beat drops and im ready to go I've got a stylized flow headed straight for you And im only doing what i was made to do So why is everybody treating me like a fool I don't know But I kinda like it People think I'm stupid till they hear the hype shit You know I tell the truth so why the fuck you lyin' You ain't never gonna make it why the fuck You tryin' Im a fuckin lion Im a carnivore Welcome to my mind let me give you a tour If you look to your left you'll see a locked up door Believe me You don't wanna go in Cuz the lion will find you and feed on your sin Until there's nothing else left but your peeling skin Old me is over New me begins If you look over there deep down in the past You'll see the little boy who always got picked last He had no real friends, so he had a blast With the ones in his mind till they fired back And they tried to control him and make him a slave A slave to the past that he couldn't erase So, one day he fought back and he started to change Into a madman, a sad man A fucking disgrace But he didn't stop he continued to hustle No matter the weather with brains and muscles And he always dreamed he'd be up on that stage And he always dreamed he would get there one day And so, he kept writing and so he kept fighting The matches were there he just had to ignite em Too many fears with releasing emotions Feeling emotionless numb and so frozen Honestly pray that this is the explosion I need to let it all out and release All of my demons this personal beast Too many things that I used to keep hidden but now it's a story time over this beat Never could I show a sign of frustration Parents said no you must stay dedicated Hold it all in so I did it forever, but I can't control my rage and agitations Feel like I've lost it, brain is exhausted Wish I could put all my thoughts in coffin Plenty embarrassments plenty regrets Went on a binge for over a month Tired of smiling and showing a front My life is a mess I don't want to confront I guess when someone made you feel incredible Finally leaves you just need the euphoria She gave to you, so you act unprofessional Zero coherence and caught in dysphoria Couple months later I haven't got over it Couple months later I don't want to open it Couple months later and everyone notices I'm more depressed and I'm losing my mind I'm going insane cause I must with the rhymes Surrounded by rage but I turned to a mime Can't even speak to the people I trust And I've had enough now it's time to erupt Too many fears with such vulnerabilities Too many fears living with disabilities I know that I say that stuff doesn't get to me Honestly I've had enough of the misery Used to be able to walk in a room Light the mood up with whatever I'd do Now when I do I feel like a disgrace I know that they know about all my mistakes Sometimes I don't even know how I'm living with all of these feelings and personal demons Twitch and I jump out of bed every night man I can't even sleep or just handle me dreaming Thinking about everything I did wrong Wondering why I still do not belong In a society where I'm accepted and people connected to me and my songs Deep down I'm sorry I know I'm a hypocrite Preaching sobriety can't even get to it Life with anxiety feeling so tense and the pressure's immense but I'll always deliver it Had to disperse I just had to be heard Somebody out there just take in my words Can't even speak to the people I trust And I've had enough now it's time to erupt