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Lyrics

[Chorus] Losin homies when I'm not at home I get lonely when I'm not alone I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough The most hated everybody loves [Verse 1] I'm back to my old ways, ha Livin my life like Coldplay Bury my problems so nobody solve em, I halfway did it my own way Freeze my heart, numb my pain, but it's still gon stay When it thaw out, I break down Never can tell when I'm gon break CDG on my sleeve make it part of my needs when I see I'm not okay Trials weigh on my mind, I ain't doin no time but I'm feelin like OJ Too much weight on my rhymes, can't waste time tryna tell em that no way I just know I can't go back, I been livin too fast, never let it all go away And even if I could, I got too much on my mind just to leave it if I would When I look into the mirror, I be dreamin, I see good, I see reasons not to hide, I see demons that I should All the pluses come with questions, I been shaky lately All this hidin, all this lyin low gon make me crazy Got this chip up on my shoulder that I'm steady lookin over Every slip-up feel like Hell, I can't make it safety Baby [Chorus] Losin homies when I'm not at home I get lonely when I'm not alone I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough The most hated everybody love And I can't beat these voices in my head tellin me I'm not enough yet Drummin on my chest, I can only pray I'm up next Ohhhhh Ohhhhh Is this the life? [Verse 2] Naw it can't be Runnin from the same old issues Got my hand on trigger like a Hitman be Tryna beat depression but the pit ran deep Run up commas, slip back east Tryna find a smile out a pitch black mood Workin hard, can't switch back, never let a mismatch in between me and my food Who is y'all dudes? Why does everyone get an opinion? What do y'all do? Why does criticism have me trippin? What about you? Have you ever lost enough to question if you did it all for nothin, if it crumbles, it was somethin, that's just life [Chorus] Losin homies when I'm not at home I get lonely when I'm not alone I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough The most hated everybody love And I can't beat these voices in my head tellin me I'm not enough yet Drummin on my chest, I can only pray I'm up next Ohhhhh Ohhhhh Is this the life? [Is this the life I said I want, I try to hide, I can't Inside my mind, I'm colder now, I try to hide, I can't]