Cry You a River

Lyrics

[Intro] It's like there's five stages of death And the final one is acceptance Know what I mean? It's real life [Verse 1] The moment you squeezed The trigger, I felt dissed. How the hell could you be so selfish? The current events that led up to this moment You masqueraded your death wish, you ain't think I had the mental Capacity to comprehended your troubles in deafness So subtle, I'm breathless. "I'mma be just like you" was my Old motto. That was before you murked my best friend Big cousin and role model, left my soul hollow Now I hold bottles of E & J and drown myself in this Alcohol in slow sorrow, and I find myself Not taking sips but whole swallows, and my outlook on life's Meaning is so shallow. You led by example Your life was the blueprint I was supposed to go follow Back to fishing due to the fact you missing At a crossroads 'cause at the wake of your untimely demise You sent me on a backwards mission. Shit, I only pray That Allah has mercy on your soul upon His acquisition I can't help but find it suitable cursing You fucked up a beautiful person, and, still, on judgment day, I pray Your soul gets acquitted. Without question, I'll always love you I just hate the horrible act you committed [Hook] (x2) I'll cry you a river. If not, then this song I'll try and deliver. I'm still in denial You can't die, you my nigga. I'm all out of liquor, so I'm Pouring out my heart to you, my nigga [Verse 2] I'd be lying through my grill if I said it's been all lovely It ain't all good, it's been a slow recovery Except when I'm drunk and bubbly, although on certain days I swear I feel your brotherly spirit hover above me, shit I almost died seven years ago. Did God appoint you When He sent prevention for my divine intervention? If not, then God, I wish You do such. Lately, I've been Faced with adversity and dealing with issues too much No shoulders to lean on. If they ain't cold, then they hunched up A few family members is genuine and a bunch suck I know it's foul, even at reunions some don't show a smile Even though most of us are almost 30-years old with child The degrees of separation lures my heart Where's an offspring supposed to start? 'Cause, sometimes, even the thickest Of blood grows apart, and my two-year-old is smart Even she notices when the goodbyes and hellos is tart Time don't heal every wound, sometimes it adds to The suffrage, I'm knowing as if life wasn't enough a bitch Your presence is missing. Still, I know your spiritual essence Will listen. Give your brother my blessings in prison [Hook] (x2) I'll cry you a river. If not, then this song I'll try and deliver. I'm still in denial You can't die, you my nigga. I'm all out of liquor, so I'm Pouring out my heart to you, my nigga [Verse 3] They say suicide's An unforgivable act, can't sneak into God's graces There's no visible cracks, so when it's time for Him to revisit The facts, I'm praying that you an exception to the rule And He'll review every individual's tracks Lord, I hope You see the goodness that warmed and keep a spot In Your heart for him and the heavenly hood that's above I understood it's a shove to ask You to keep his soul In Your graces, but if anything could, it's the love If I could turn back the hands of time, I'd rather squeeze The tool myself, can't let that kind of fate repeat, G I hate me deeply, the possibility if I was to die This moment, you wouldn't be at the golden gates to greet me The absence would mess up the vanity rest of infinity If I had a personal Hell, you could guess what's the penalty, shit Just the mere thought of it all makes me teary-eyed No matter how much I tell myself to look on the cheery side No matter how much I talk with God in deep discussion 'Cause you and I both knew the repercussions when you put Your soul in the reaper's clutches, so why then? I'm still trying to figure as I'm crying this river [Hook] (x2) I'll cry you a river. If not, then this song I'll try and deliver. I'm still in denial You can't die, you my nigga. I'm all out of liquor, so I'm Pouring out my heart to you, my nigga