Lyrics

Up at night I toss and turn I don't know what to say I meant it when I said I wanna talk, but I'm afraid I want you here right next to me, but pushing you away Is how I keep your colours safe from me, I love them but I'm gray Look I don't usually write like this But tonight this shits a battle I can't fight with fists And I don't think I've ever really gripped the mic like this But everything I write tonight is for your life my sis Yeah I'm just tryna keep it together, I had a crazy November You almost missed this December Remember life will get better, just gotta weather this storm I know it ain't always warm, so let me give you my sweater, I better ah!, take a little second to breathe Man I gotta get out my mental, just need a little relief And I know that girls just a rental, and still I somehow receive But in a few months I leave, fuck I'd never give her my seed. That's greed I'm off topic, I got little regrets I don't mean none of them, I mean I feel I'm riddled with stress, rekindle an ex, told her I want little but sex I'm brittle and vexed, living off reality checks Now I gotta make it for idols at the top Me and my homies at the bottom, we stay grinding every drop And people hop onto the wagon cause they know it never stops And I'm the horse that it's attached to so I'll spit shit till I pop Bad kidz, without a penny to our names We filling every single page we jotting down about a stage When people pay us for a photo, and they show up just to rage So I invested every cent I made off of minimum wage Up at night I toss and turn I don't know what to say I meant it when I said I wanna talk, but I'm afraid I want you here right next to me, but pushing you away Is how I keep your colours safe from me, I love them but I'm gray And now the girl on mind, is a thousand miles away Instead of calling I'm ballin, man I'm just tryna get laid I know I'm blessed and I try to stay humble, shouldn't complain But still I trip and I stumble, sometimes give in to the pain Maybe it've worked if I wasn't so emotionally distant Left me in the dirt, said you always busy and inconsistent Mind was always missing, I heard but I never listened I thought, but I never felt a fucking thing don't get it twisted I knew you already knew that These hoes could never see through that, want you, but cannot pursue that Gotta provide for my brothers, who welcomed me like a shoe mat I know you tried but it's hard to see all the times that I blew at From many miles away I know you tried and you prayed And hoped one day I'd get over it all and smile it away I really wish it that simple I'd fucking fly on a plane And book that ticket to Paris so I could take you away Through many years, had plenty fears, I skid steer Faced em like a deer in the headlights, they in my rear mirror With all my haters and doubters Know they can hear clear U.Fø's year, you don't fuck wit me better steer clear Went through too much in 2019 They told me go and eat shit, but it's funny cause mines clean Listen dummy this rhyme scheme Snatches honey's and dimes please Your bitch changing in front me, you fronting on my team Up at night I toss and turn I don't know what to say. I meant it when I said I wanna talk, but I'm afraid. I want you here right next to me, but pushing you away, is how I keep your colours safe from me, I love them but I'm gray