Following Me

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Monoxide] I'm feeling so cold and broken I was hoping that somebody can maybe take a moment To get me out of my hopeless state of mind, and I'm open To almost anything 'cause the burden of what I'm holding Is heavy like the crown of a hundred kings So I keep bottling, and it seems not a thing can bother me But the truth is I'm hoping to get through this Medicine is useless, and I'm the living proof Sick of being cooped up like a pigeon on a roof Just wanna be alone, and no I don't have a clue My anxiety picked me, I'm totally confused by it all So is everybody elsе, I'm in a free fall Help me break through, it's not too latе to Many people focus on the things they can't lose And I don't wanna do the same, we gotta weather it together Or it's never gonna change or get better, man [Chorus: Monoxide] Seems like this storm cloud been following me Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology I'm not sure I can take it anymore Can anybody get this feeling out of me? [Verse 2: Young Wicked] I'm used to the pain So I don't need a thing, just get the fuck away from me Unless you're sending me an angel Something in my brain so gone, living painfully I'm tryna find my way out of the dark My mama's heart gon' break when she pray for me I wonder when the world gon' change for me I'm tired of this shit, I've been feeling sick I've been like, uh, getting violent in this bitch Hiding from the light, uhin the night is where I live I can't get a grip, Vicodin and Tylenol again There's a hole in my heart that I been climbin' in Suicide hotline and I just dialed it Told 'em, "Yeah, I been thinkin' about taking my life again With a steak knife under my chin Let a razor slide down my wrist and I'ma bleed out My life is like a prison and I need out Psychiatric eval told me that I need help" "Sir, I need you to take a deep breath and then breathe out" "Make sure you tell my lady I love her after I peace out 'Cause nothing is helpin' the sufferin' I fell in I'm stuck in this hell, it's the hand I was dealt in So give me the bullet, a trigger to pull, or reason to stop I hear the police on the block I look at the gun, and I see a shot [Chorus: Monoxide] Seems like this storm cloud been following me Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology I'm not sure I can take it anymore Can anybody get this feeling out of me? [Verse 3: Jamie Madrox] Storm cloud coming out the block full of rain for me Even though they hate me wanna pray for me [?] dig the grave for me hoping I'm [?] Maybe stay longer than I'm 'possed to From the underground [?] People tryna roast you Play you like a ghost who Needs more attention than the average most do That's hatin' with a [?], we do it like a thug do And we gon' do it how we do it nothin' to it Never was though, [?] to the front [?] to the door, everybody on the floor With they hands up, [?] the crown that we split And we watch the throne like King Ye and Jay-Z Add it to your playlist, forever young like a face lift No credit for the efforts that we came with Fame or entertainment or all of the love and dedication Some shit never will replace it [Chorus: Monoxide] Seems like this storm cloud been following me Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology I'm not sure I can take it anymore Can anybody get this feeling out of me? [Verse 4: Bingx] I been feelin' like all my confidence vacant All my time has been wasted My mind [?] clean but I'm manic Checkin' out [?] conversation with Mom My focus disappeared like magic Made a promise I will always show respect for my elders But lately I don't even have respect for myself I'm isolated from the world Depression is takin' over Don't know what happened [?] give me the pen and I'll tell ya You been passionate, workin' like every day [?] you might kick the bucket and pass, but you ain't makin' funds Then you got labels makin' fun They laughin', talkin' 'bout data Trying to live with the expectations Thinkin' like wait, how did they become So cruel and unusual tryna shoot through my spirit Like you don't want the music, you want [?] lyrics I feel abused, but every tune got something you couldn't mirror Acute and [?] you couldn't know the truth when you hear it I'm guess I'm just confused, I need a way to vent it Tryna teach my son to chase his dreams and make a difference Either in the [?] in my soul to make a living Play the gimmick, something I would never do to make 'em listen Listen, I'm the outside, I may look fine But the truth is my depression here wherever I go now Always [?] on the inside I think I'm spinnin' outta control now Feel the pressure, my world is falling down on me Depression relentless, it's like a [?] for me Introspective, I shine a light on the doubts of me Self-inflicted, but y'all keep on lookin' down from your balcony That's the type of thing to crush your pride And over time I just learned I couldn't trust those guys Got passion, got heart, got talent, got pride And who the fuck are you to look down from up so high? [Chorus: Monoxide] Seems like this storm cloud been following me Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology I'm not sure I can take it anymore Can anybody get this feeling out of me?