I am Pagliacci

Lyrics

[Chorus] And I kid, I kid around (Kid around) And I kid, I kid around 'Cause I don't like myself Sometimes I just don't like myself (Sometimes) The way I am The way I am Why so serious? [Verse 1] Growing up bi-racial wasn't fun The proverbial sore thumb But I knew who I was from day one I used humor to cover up my sadness And triple X FUBU to cover up my man tits (Stop looking at me) White girls loved me 'cause I was kinda black (Haha) But too black to introduce me to mom and dad (For real?) Then there's a point in which you start to get exhausted For tryna keep these skeletons from spilling out the closet I blogged about my breakdown when I nearly lost it Exercising my demons, had they asses doing crossfit I got ninety nine reasons to keep from leaving my apartment Ninety-eight are human beings, the other's because I'm cautious (Leave me alone) Sometimes I bite my fingernails 'til they bloody Might skip a few showers but my friends still love me And I know it might seem a little stupid I'm almost in my forties, still chubby and reclusive [Chorus] And I kid, I kid around (To keep from crying) And I kid, I kid around (It keeps you smiling) 'Cause I don't like myself Sometimes I just don't like myself The way I am The way I am [Verse 2] When every morning's like stepping on a bunch of loose Legos Nothing sentimental when your own body feels like a rental Plus my sink ain't even working I think they cut the water I'm at the brink at 10 AM, my head's already cluttered So I went to see this shrink and he wrote a prescription said: "There's a clown in town, pay him a visit I guarantee you by the end of the show, you'll be cured of all your sorrow" (Yeah right) I said, "Doc, sit down, there's something you should know" (Let me take some notes here) I am that clown, I been the clown And I always kid around tryna kill that clown And you don't really care You just play a doctor on television (Stupid) With an overpriced leather chair for me to bitch in "Well, I've assessed the story and I think that I should mention I just prescribe the pills and get paid to listen" [Chorus] 'Cause I don't like myself Sometimes I just don't like myself (Sometimes) The way I am The way I am