Permanently Scarred (I Don’t Wanna Wait)

Lyrics

[Intro] Ma this song is for you, cause I love you [Verse 1] My tears fall on the paper as I write this scribe It's like somewhere in my life a part of me died And through my eyes a forgotten pain, rotten vain Escapin the hell fire runnin from flames Seein moms on the kitchen floor Not knowin that the dope she injected this time was too raw Saw myself trapped in the womb tryin to get out Consumed by this hell flamed pain I spit out On the day we rest may our souls be free I ain't mad cause this world made a cold like me I forgive her cause my mother gave us all she could Just another black girl lost enslaved by the hood I would trade my existance to give you breath Guess the only guarantes in this life is death As I look around seein im the last one left And the things I can't change I just gotta accept [Hook: Joya] I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now whats it gonna be And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now can we all be free [Verse 2] Watchin the heat throttle on trial cause niggas is tellin My rap sheet be the novel of a predicate felon D.A. narrator of a story untold Homicide found some evidence, the truth unfold Paintin' pictures for the jury that my heart seem cold Let me explain this life nearly drove me insane Cell 33, 'I' block lay in the flat Eatin Jack Mack, too far can't turn back Niggas rather see you layin on the coroner's table Unprepared for the war and even more disabled Turn they backs on you slay you like Kane did Able Heard took two in the chest an one in his navel See my mom chose dope, my pop chose the pipe So I rhyme like a triple beam balance in life Hope the scale lean on my side so I can prevail Most of us lay in the casket or locked in jail Urban warfare, guerilla combat I seen a bullet tear a niggas head off upon contact So pour some Henny out for those not comin back I pour this Henny out for my nigga Killa Black [Bridge: B-Minor] My days and nights are getting longer We can make it on these corners I can't take it anymore death is knockin at my door Will my whole life pass me by I try to escape when I get high I dont no if I will survive Will I live or will I die I dont wanna wait [Hook: Joya] I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now whats it gonna be And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now can we all be free [Verse 3] The criminal way, a foul price to pay Another dark day reminisin' on Ty Yey 19 dead plus had baby on the way Its real shit, chicken heads they dont be feelin shit Pain runs deep in my life It just reveals it late night I'm jumpin out the bed in cold sweat Drippin' wet playin my gate with cigerette Up north six months and ain't seen my girl yet She wrote me once told me she was doin' her thing Wrote her back told her live her life by all means Peep game, cause things ain't as real as it seems Slit her own moms throat for the taste of cream Had my man dead her, for the cheddar, time will come But she bounced down south and took my son If I could reach out and touch her, she'd just get bucked But I'm locked out stressed out mad as fuck And I down wanna wait [Hook: Joya] I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now whats it gonna be And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now can we all be free I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now whats it gonna be And I dont wanna wait for our lives to be over I wanna know right now can we all be free