See You Leave

Lyrics

[Chorus: Steven Rodriguez] This rain keeps pourin' from the clouds you made for me I thought this all done, but the storm won't let me be, so I sit here often, thinkin' how I couldn't see The time, we lost it and I'll break to see you leave [Verse 1: Token] Why don't I forgive you? You're layin' in a grave and I woke up at a young healthy age So why don't I forgive you? I buried you today, looked around and I was only one of eight So why don't I forgive you? Nobody wanna say it, but if anyone deserved it, it was you So why don't I forgive you? I only feel bad for the ones who feel bad when they do When they do, I'ma tell 'em thеy got better shit to feel, ah, ah, ah Promise I'ma keep it rеal, ah, ah, ah What does blood even reveal? You're my dad's dad, but you're why my dad never healed I'm sorry, but I'm not grievin' He was dead to us way before he stopped breathin' The last time we spoke was four years ago even And I was fine with that before he died So why can't I forgive myself neither? [Chorus: Steven Rodriguez] This rain keeps pourin' from the clouds you made for me I thought this all done, but the storm won't let me be, so I sit here often, thinkin' how I couldn't see The time, we lost it and I'll break to see you leave [Verse 2: Token] Why don't I forgive you? You're layin' in a grave and I woke up at a young healthy age So why don't I forgive you? You know I'm self-made, we both layin' in the product of our ways So why don't I forgive you? I wrote a eulogy today, but your brother had a page, can I say Shit, how could he forgive you? For all the silence and the hate And all the trauma and the pain that you leave him Got the same name, but I changed ways of the meanin' Now the name ring and it maintains somethin' deeper Than the same hate and the same shame that you catered Kinda hate that I'm doin' your last name a fuckin' favor You don't deserve that Dad was almost homeless, he ain't never heard a word back Nah, he don't deserve that I heard you were askin' 'bout me on your deathbed How you still got me dealin' with regrets? Can't forgive myself neither [Chorus: Steven Rodriguez] This rain keeps pourin' from the clouds you made for me (Clouds you made for me) I thought this all done, but the storm won't let me be, so I sit here often, thinkin' how I couldn't see (How I couldn't see) The time, we lost it and I'll break to see you leave [Verse 3: Token] Should I have been there more? All the birthday letters I ignored, calls, texts I ignored Shit, should I have been there more? Dad would even answer yours, so who'd I even do it for? Should I have been there more? Told myself to pick a side, was it honesty or was it pride? I should've been there more Too late to make it right, it's too late to make it right Moments home away when they're spent With someone who ain't here no more, so why am I feelin' regret? The problems feel a little lesser when they ended at death Too busy pickin' a side to take a peek over the fence I know I could've done more, ah, ah, ah Too proud to be mature, ah, ah, ah I was nine tellin' you I like to rhyme, you said, "Keep it up" But ended up fine, now it's too late to see me tour, nah, nah, ah I never told you how I felt 'cause I ain't wanna hear your voice Never knew the way I felt, so I ain't even make a point Probably thought I was just selfish and I didn't make the time Used to think that you were wrong, now I know that you were right I seen the picture of you, seen you in a different light So they ask about your upbringing and childhood life And now it makes some more sense, you're just a product of his struggle I'm sorry and I love you, I should've been there more