Alles was ich immer wollte war alles

Song Meaning

This track opens with a stark image of creative work being erased, suggesting a profound sense of loss and invalidation. The narrator's past efforts, described as "Papier und Grafit" and "Vinyl," are unceremoniously discarded, leaving behind a feeling that what was once real now "never really existed." This sets a tone of disillusionment, where tangible creations are rendered meaningless. The core tension emerges in the chorus, a powerful juxtaposition between the narrator's desire for "everything" and the reality that "all I ever had was you." This creates a poignant conflict: a yearning for boundless achievement or possession contrasted with the singular, perhaps all-consuming, presence of another person. The repetition of this line hammers home the idea that this relationship was the entirety of the narrator's world, for better or worse. The lyrics then shift to a more volatile, self-destructive imagery. The narrator becomes "dynamite" in a "mined area," ready to "light myself and then / throw myself away." This intense metaphor suggests a feeling of being inherently dangerous or unstable, a volatile force that is destined for destruction. It implies a deep-seated self-loathing or a sense that their very existence is a threat, leading to a desire for annihilation. Ultimately, the song seems to grapple with the overwhelming nature of desire and the potential emptiness that follows its attainment or the loss of its object. The final shift in the chorus to "Wart ihr" (you all) and the plea "Please don't leave me" suggests a desperate need for connection, perhaps realizing that "everything" was never truly the goal, but rather the presence of others. The narrator appears to be confronting the terrifying prospect of being left alone with their unfulfilled desires and the remnants of their erased past.