Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a picture of something internal and potent, a "heart" that is both a source of unease and a growing presence. The narrator describes a feeling "on my insides" that is "working" and "moving," something they "feed it carefully" yet are "not happy" about. This internal force is pervasive, even detectable "on my house" and "on my sheets," suggesting it's become an inescapable part of their existence. The central tension seems to lie in the narrator's complex relationship with this "heart." While they acknowledge its existence and even its "big" nature through repetition, there's a clear undercurrent of distress. The phrases "not rips," "not bleed," and "not knowing really know whats happening" point to a desire to contain or control this force, perhaps to prevent it from causing damage or to understand its mysterious nature. The act of "feeding it often" suggests a reluctant nurturing, a commitment to something they don't fully comprehend or welcome. The most striking shift occurs in the third stanza, where a childhood memory surfaces. A "bike that I got secondhand" leads to a traumatic accident where the narrator "cut my head so bad I thought I died." This near-death experience appears to be the catalyst for a profound change, as the narrator states, "And I never believed in you 'til then." This moment of crisis seems to be the origin of their belief, a belief that is then reiterated with increasing intensity: "I believe in / I believe in / I believe in / I believe in you." This juxtaposition of the unsettling, growing "heart" and the transformative, belief-inducing trauma makes the lyrics resonate. The repeated "Got a heart" refrain, initially sounding like a confession of vulnerability, transforms into an affirmation of survival and newfound conviction. The writing suggests that sometimes, the most profound growth and belief emerge not from comfort, but from confronting the internal forces that threaten to break us.