Lyrics

How, in my bones That feeling of embarrassment remains Like a tattoo on my skin But words had already slipped my eager mouth And are now hovering in the air I said a prayer for them To be picked down by a savior Safely, onto the ground And I knew that it would leave A sour feeling in my belly Grow up! How she did die I overheard. My parents conversation Gave me the facts kept from younger ears And how it was burning me from the inside out Like a secret waiting to be told It grew much bigger than me So I cleared my throat, I raised my voice, to speak Like the kid that I was And immediately I knew I'd never been worthy Grow up! Deep, deep down in my gut, a ball of shame Deep, deep down droops my head, a last farewell Deep, deep down from within is where I sang For you, Johanna That's how we learn things, when we are hurting