Eyes Closed

Lyrics

Verse 1: Vessel Trying to keep it together but it's hard like old velcro Papa's locked up again but mama's doing well though I hope I make it to heaven but who the hell knows Why is it so hard to feel alive when you're dead broke Still sipping from a poison well Finding new ways to destroy myself Chasing goals til the soles in my shoes gone You left me hanging guess I never took the noose off I see better with my eyes closed trying to juggle life, unicycling tight rope Hustling by taking my time as I die slow Never had a ghost riding only for a rhyme coach Down to my last stake with high hopes Watched it run free too afraid to take my chains off They sing along cuz it's all just the same song My family tree was mutilated with chainsaws Life's sucks in on your own too and stay strong And thank God Hook I look closer with my eyes closed (x2) Verse 2: windchILL 1, 2, 1, 2, here we go, 1, 2, yo Why in the world am I still holding this mic (for the love) Cuz most of ya'll not holding it right Fighting down on my mouthpiece, trying to right my wrongs As I write this song the word appeared You can't touch what you can't see or be what you can't dream The closer that I look in the mirror, "Damn is that me?" With the gray hairs and the tears on the cheek I just hope that I can make it to the end of the week (lord please) Heartbreaking staying strong for my son And just like that, blessed with another one Yo, why in the world do I deserve this? Deserve another sign can't help but feel nervous Look into their eyes, can't help but feel purpose All this hard work, they make it all worth it Instead of feeling worthless, I drop verses Always ask why and always keep searching Hook I look closer with my eyes closed (x2) Verse 3: Apollo's Sun I'm sick of all the questions everlasting in my head Sometimes I feel the world would be a better place if I was dead Back accused walk around feeling sad and bruised This a bitch maybe I need to switch my the attitude And all the shattered bruised, put on simpatico in fact I cut em down to size with a knife into my back Check it, I leave em scarred and blind, you want a bar to find Put all the habits traders, bark it out in harder times While killing all the dreams not making em go further Cut a knife up to the neck of life I know I'm gonna hurt em What can make a man a murderer, disservice to this earth Is it nurture or is it in his nature from his birth? Yo, is this a vocal booth, is it the truth? Cuz when I look around the globe I only see a pattered view Where the flowers bloom without a moon another hour's past Without the answers to the questions that I ask Look closer, peace Hook I look closer with my eyes closed (x2)