I Don’t Like Who I Was Then

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[Verse 1] Tossed around like sea glass And you rounded out my edges I'll feel better when the headaches go away I've got a scar across my forehead Turning purple in the cold From a night at Shore Memorial I was sixteen and afraid Turned away Like I'm working babyface Out of Mid-South in the eighties I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape [Chorus] I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks I want to run till my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough [Verse 2] Hidden in the tall grass In the naked light of day Put my past self in the ground I've been dancing on the grave I'm not the person that I was then I'm tearing him away I was bitter, I was careless I was nineteen and afraid [Pre-Chorus] But you deserve more from me I don't know why I would say those things But you deserve more than me And I'm trying every day [Chorus] I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks I want to run till my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough [Bridge] You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the baby teeth I buried You were the sounds of distant cars You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the banner that says "no one" That I tattooed across my heart You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You scattered like ashes across every song that I write You're where the light pollution starts [Chorus] I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks I want to run till my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up Enough is enough