Very Many

Song Meaning

The lyrics paint a picture of persistent, almost cyclical disappointment, starting with childhood unmet expectations. The narrator recalls a summer that never felt like it arrived and a father whose presence was absent, leaving them feeling isolated and hungry. This sense of waiting for something good that never quite materializes sets a tone of underlying melancholy that seems to echo through their life. The phrase "first time" repeats, suggesting these feelings of neglect and longing were formative and perhaps recurring. The narrative then shifts to a more abstract, possibly relational, context with "Joseph turned a bad-ass brother." This line, alongside the imagery of "smoking the rains outside," hints at a complex, perhaps strained, connection where moments of clarity or shared experience are "hazy." The contrast between the external weather and internal "hazy moment" suggests a disconnect, where even shared experiences are tinged with an unresolvable distance. The repetition of "that was the first time" here again links these adult experiences back to that original sense of unmet needs. The outro solidifies the lyrical theme of inescapable internal struggle. The narrator describes thoughts that "just come back to my head," feeling beyond their control and pervasive throughout their "walkings of my mind." This inability to "mend them" highlights a deep-seated emotional burden. Yet, the final lines reveal a coping mechanism: "I do make songs / I make songs of them." This suggests that the act of creation, of channeling these persistent, difficult thoughts into music, is how the narrator navigates their internal landscape, transforming pain into art.