Lyrics

"i'm thinkin' bout the future That never came to pass And all the bloody sutures In my face are out at last I'm healing like a human I'm an angel stuck on earth What the hell am i doing What the hell was it all worth Cause i just go and go And keep on going I grow, and grow Grow past the moments Where i loved, i lost I fought for a home that Is gone, it's gone now If i had a nickel For every time that i was thrown out Just as i was getting comfortable I'd have more money than you could count And maybe with all that i didn't earn I'd build my life back from skin and bone Or maybe i'd just watch the world turn Buy myself a nice headstone saying "he was always meant to burn" When i sleep i dream of gold And when i'm up my body aches None of us were ever told The horrid toll release would take Cause i'm living like i'm human Even though i never have I guess the perks of being 19 Forever they don't last Cause i keep going and going But why do i bother When i keep growing older And outliving others All i loved, i have lost And the home that i fought for Is gone, yeah, it's gone now If i had a nickel For every time that i was thrown out Just as i was getting comfortable I'd have more money than you could count And maybe with all that i didn't earn I'd build my life back from skin and bone Or maybe i'd just watch the world turn Buy myself a nice headstone saying "he was always meant to burn" Oh, i'm gettin too tired to be sad forever I was not a liaison, not now or ever I live like a flash fire, i burn bright but lethal Everybody says "parker, let yourself heal" But my memory's hazy, gone with the time I don't know how we got here, who did it or why I am not a liaison, i was just hers I was always an angel stuck here on earth I am just a bad angel stuck here on earth I am just a dying angel for what it's worth If i had a nickel For every time that i was thrown out Just as i was getting comfortable I'd have more money than you could count And maybe with all that i didn't earn I'd build my life back from skin and bone Or maybe i would just watch the world turn Buy myself a nice head stone, saying He was always meant to He was always meant to He was always meant to, yeah I was always meant to burn"