Song Meaning

The narrator repeatedly expresses a desire to "get high with you," framing it not as a casual indulgence but as a coping mechanism. This desire stems from a feeling of being overwhelmed and inarticulate, stating, "it's hard to be expressive / When there's so many things I wanna say and do." The act of getting high appears to be a proposed solution for navigating internal pressure and external communication difficulties. The core tension lies in the narrator's self-awareness of their own flaws and potential to cause harm within a relationship. They admit, "I'm gonna do wrong by you, sometimes" and "I'll try to be strong, but I might do wrong by you." This confession is paired with a plea for understanding and recovery, suggesting a deep-seated fear of failure as a partner despite a desire to "be a good lover." The lyrics highlight a struggle with imperfection, both internal and in relationships. The narrator observes, "Can't you see the imperfection / That curses the ones / Who need so much affection." This suggests a feeling that vulnerability and the need for connection make one susceptible to mistakes. The pressure intensifies when navigating a relationship, as "when there is two / The pressure gets worse." Ultimately, the repeated refrain "I wanna get high with you" functions as a plea for shared escape and a way to soften the harsh realities of imperfection and relational strain. It's a desire for a state where the narrator feels they can better manage their internal chaos and the complexities of being with another person, hoping for a temporary reprieve from the burden of their own perceived shortcomings.