State of Being

Lyrics

I don't like my thoughts I'm worried where I'm wrong Why can't I seem to live without a bottle in my hand There's never been a way out I feel detached, outside my mind Demons crawl on my skull I was lost without a way, I could never find a way out I need relief I hate being me Staring at the sun I end up curled up in a ball, writing letters in a hospital Everything feels wrong Fear sings my song I toil under the sun I've had a lot of time to work and a lot of time to think about it But in my mind, I think everything's fine I've lost all control I've had a lot of time to drink and a lot of time to think about it I don't know what I need to feel ok My feelings don't matter everything turns grey I'm in psychic pain I stand in the sunlight at last My past does not define me I am a good son This life will pass (x4) I don't know what I need to feel ok My feelings don't matter everything turns grey