I’m Not Getting Excited

Lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm not getting excited 'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in Just the chill when I learn that it's finally my turn I have finally earned my place in the urn And I take a fall But I keep my hands soft I keep my body limp and I move with the wind I'll go where it bends and let go of the expectation [Verse 2] I'm not getting excited 'Cause the light on my phone's got me hiding When it flashes at night, it's the bringer of signs I can see through my eyelids, I know that it's time And I hold it all But I keep my hands soft All the answering, asking, my thoughts are a rat king There's no point untangling the thought from the action I'm awake [Chorus] What is it like, the other side Where all my vital signs aren't fading away? Violent dreams keep me awake I wear the same face in the morning A warning [Instrumental Bridge] [Verse 3] I'm not getting excited 'Cause my fight and my flight are divided And so I don't enthuse, keep my grip on joy loose And I wait for the news with my feet in my shoes And I lose it all With one foot out the door When I smile, I lie with my eye to the side So I greet with goodbye, I greet with goodbye Yeah, goodbye [Chorus] But what is it like, the other side Where all my vital signs aren't fading away? Violent dreams keep me awake I wear the same face in the morning A warning A warning