Dear Rachel

Lyrics

[Verse] (Just another) Today, I was sitting at the pier waiting for the exact time of a reservation I remember everything but not the images, only the residuals (Day on the verge) Everything is okay and the passage of time is less of a slice out of my flesh than before (Just another) I feel so connected to my life, but it wasn't me, I wasn't there, I wasn't conscious (Day on the verge) There is this deeply pained version of myself waiting for any open opportunity to hop over the rails and into terminal danger I always want to run (Submerge my heart) I do not know towards what, but I know it's away from myself I wasted so many nights thinking, "This one might be the one" (I don't want it now) Every night passed and none of them were the hopes I had placed on them The last two weeks of my life were like entering and exiting the rabbit hole Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been (Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?) Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been (I don't think anyone can feel my gaze) Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been (Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?) Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been (I don't think anyone can feel my gaze) [Outro] (Just another) Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze (Day on the verge) Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze (Submerge my heart) Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze (I don't want it now) Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way? I don't think anyone can feel my gaze