Ignoring Both

Lyrics

[Verse] My memories are lost and I won't find them any time soon I used to enjoy your company, but now the thought is ruined I won't play along to the beat, I won't follow the tune Everyone's taking advantage of me and I am no fool They told me to innovate, but what am I supposed to do? They have no ambitions to help me, they didn't even teach me the rules Despite these circumstances, I refuse to lose Because if I lose, I won't let myself eat any food I'm always so harsh in how I punish myself, it's no good Misunderstood, everyone gets the wrong idea I don't speak up enough to make it clear I started waiting months and soon it became years Nobody gives me a shot, they always veer Shut me down like Sears, I'm an empty department store How hard do I have to vouch that I'm not the same as before? Actions speak louder than words, but you ignore both I can swear to God, I can take an oath You don't want to be in my boat, because it's unstable They cut me off, cut me off like network cable I'll believe your stories even if they are fables Because I'd want you to believe me if I turned the tables I want to be listened to, someone to value my effort Even if we aren't fated to be, at least we were together Hold on to me as if we're tethered When I'm with you I feel lighter than a feather I'm feeling sick as my temperature rises, I think I have a fever If I die you can drop all my songs, you can be a leaker All this pitch makes me sound like I am a squeaker The tragedy of my life is soon airing in theater