Lyrics

[Verse 1: Violent J] Everybody always fillin' my head Tryin' to help, but instead they be killin' me dead Since I was little, spiked walls, I'm in the middle It's like everyday life be a riddle Psychologists tellin' me things, sellin' me pills For thrills, I bet none of it's real Murder only seems impossible to those who can't do it But liquor and pills will guide you through it They've always told me I'll burn in Hell, I'm that mean But all that waits to be seen I might still save myself along the way But that won't save yourself today Am I a product of a world gone mad? Brain gone bad? Blame on Dad? Face painted, bloody, cuttin' you up I don't really know why, don't give no fuck Help me? Brother, don't even try I don't wanna help myself no more, I won't even lie I've adjusted to my inner beast, and I trust it When he shows up, at the least your chin'll get busted And the weed might slow me down But when I panic, seven dudes couldn't hold me down In the beginnin', they poked me with sticks in the playground Now I'm shackled on my way downtown [Chorus] I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone [Verse 2: Esham] I was always told by everyone that I shouldn't carry guns Voices in my head locked in the sanitarium All my enemies, man, you really shouldn't worry 'em In the cemetery's where you'll 'em when I bury 'em Super duper wicked like Alice Cooper and Ozzy Hitler theory, kamikaze black nazi Always told by everyone that I was in the hot seat With gasoline drawers on, servin' on the hot street Always told by everyone not to marry 'em Money over bitches and I sho'nuff bury 'em Always told I'm scarin' 'em, but I'm preparin' 'em For the final fear factor while society's darin' 'em Always told to pop that but never stop that Put it out, push the package, you go and cop that Get my villain on 'em, make a killin' on 'em Slugs get to drillin' on 'em, blood get to spillin' on 'em [Chorus] I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone [Verse 3: Lavel] See I, wanna just breathe again Sick thoughts in my head 'bout to seize again See everybody told me my mind's fucked up When I was little, I'd stand right in front of a truck But I wanna just shoot up shit Got a problem with the law and it can't be fixed I see a gun, here I go, murder's on my mind I need help, alcohol, a knife and a nine I sit alone, it gets worse, I can't take this I'm pissed I ain't rich, I'm poor I ain't shot So I rob everyone, and they told me not to do it I listen but I'm fucked, I'm a killer and they knew it Now the police lookin', but I'm not a suspect I can't think, I forgot why these cuts on my neck Every day a new death, I can't figure it out I put the gun to my head, man, fuck it, I'm out [Chorus] I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone [Outro] Tryin' not to kill someone I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone I was always told by everyone Where I'm goin' and what I will become When I'm all alone, I hold a gun Tryin' not to kill someone