The Day Before I Die

Lyrics

[Verse 1] The saddest thing in life is a waste of talent A future gone dim and is then by us Big city, bright lights, all the places I went But would I be Larry Bird or a Len Bias Only so many voices that I can quiet Only so many traumas I can withstand How long can I possibly make amends by it My own family is here sinking in quicksand I thought I beat the odds, I'm a product of my envi' [?] narcotics to get high I can wish upon a star and take a shot up at the sky But no matter where I go I'm still rotting on the inside My pride fucking with me like it's tougher to decide If I should resuscitate or just suffocate and die I wish I could find a serum, but that's the addict in me looking for a pill to cure 'em [Refrain] The Day Before I Die The Day Before I Die [Verse 2] Every day I drink a gallon of the whiskey now Plus I throw a few hundreds at the pushers Last month I pissed away like maybe fifty-thou And every night I leave my stomach in the bushes What a fall from Grace, now Starting look like it's hopeless for me When the walls come Straight down Well you already know the story I beat the odds and doubled down and double down again Kept saying "fuck it", grab my balls and guzzle down the gin With the blood all on my skin, always trouble 'round the bin I'm so sick and full of anger, that's the struggle that I'm in This gun in this palm gets shot and it's history My son and his mom are not going to miss me I just need some vodka to mix me There's not a priest on this Earth or a doctor to fix me [Refrain] The Day Before I Die The Day Before I Die [Verse 3] When I awaken I'm shaking and caught uphill Take a swig of swill and wash down some of these assorted pills Trying to stop my liver quivering I'm not sure it will All this cocaine and this whiskey is moving in for the kill Now I'm wincing and I'm inching towards this instinct to survive But my pinching is to lie, keep on rinsing what's inside Get things in sync with my high. Say goodbye to these cherry skies Until I felt the sadness in Terry's eyes Daddy tricked us again, Mommy didn't need He didn't show up to see if she's always killing me Now I've been through all the losses and the myths of this abyss And I could live with all of it, but couldn't live with this They were sharp pieces of glass from a broken spirit That cut my heart wide open, God, I hope you hear it 'Cause I'm asking for a miracle this time Give me freedom from this sickness in my mind [Refrain] The Day Before I Die The Day Before I Die