Lyrics

[Verse] They say time is a great healer But they lied cause I'm fried and my brain's beat up And the pain in my heart didn't change either So I sat in the dark and I prayed Isha I used to smoke weed cause I thought it helped me Only now I realise that it wasn't healthy When our friends died we said that we won't forget them Ten years on, they hardly ever get a mention And to me it just feels so wrong If it's fake why on Earth do we build those bonds? I understand time still goes on Maybe burying it deep's why you're still so strong We forgot that he used to make his mum happy Do we forget that his mum used to change his nappy? I think that we forget that he was once a baby Innocent and pure, no ifs, buts or maybes And this is from the heart, I don't think it's fair Why I'm still up here and you're under there If it was me I would want someone to care How I'm only visiting the graveside once a year I had to start visiting you more often You're my therapist, I talk to you bout all my problems My other bredrin, I should really go and see him First man to put me in the booth, rest in peace Sling Leon used to make beats, he had the maddest hits So advanced, his work rate was not average They stabbed him over twenty-four times I get sick to my stomach every time I imagine it He was so young and so talented No amount of money could pay for these damages And I don't care if you've already this I only put it into this song cause I'm a wordsmith And these words don't scratch the surface Why's the world like this? Why's life worthless? They killed Wahab for nothing, tell me what's the purpose? He was a good one my bro, he did not deserve this Death around the corner, it feels near How I got no fear but I'm still scared? Time goes by and this feels weird Sixteen years but I'm still here Since Ricky died I've been clinging to my sanity They said I'm the one to blame, people should be mad at me Sunglasses on, no vanity I've been tryna hide all this pain from my family apparently My friend died right in front of my eyes I was way too young, I didn't understand why Tears that I should've cried but none in my eyes Spent the next six years getting drunk and high Life's so grey like a London sky I was on beef like onions fried Now I'm different, I wonder why Probably cause I'm too busy with Hussain, writing London High